Saturday, February 18, 2012
So, the cake I baked for my boyfriend on Valentine’s Day was a bit of a hit and miss. It was a red wine chocolate cake, and while the flavor combination was to die for, the cake turned out a little dry. My apartment oven and I are not quite the best of friends like how I was with my oven back home, unfortunately. Oh well, my boyfriend was very nice about the cake being a little too dry and I’ve promised him I will make him another in the near future to redeem myself. All’s well that ends well!
On an entirely unrelated note, I remember my eighth grade English teacher once told me I need to spend more time living in the “now” than worrying about the future. (If you’re reading this, hi Mrs. Kavanagh!) This has always stayed with me over the years because I’m notorious for worrying too much about things out of my control and the future in general. But now, I feel like this is more relevant than ever. I’m scared/worried/panicked/insert similar word here about life after graduation, and what that all means, and what I’ll end up doing, and where I’ll end up being, and everything in between. But if I focus too much on life after graduation I’ll miss out on all the wonderful things in my last semester of college. That would be the biggest mistake ever; college has been wonderful and I want to soak up every minute of it.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
This is one of my favorite quotes, and it’s something to think about on this day of love (emphasis is my own):
We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It’s easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven’t even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
- Chuck Klosterman
In other semi-related news, I will be baking a cake tonight for the boyfriend. It’s partially because it’s Valentine’s Day, but mainly because I just really wanted to bake him a cake. I’m awesome like that 
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Between now and graduation, I can tell that most of my free time will be sucked up by job searching. I already talked about it a lot in last week’s weekly wrap up, but I just wanted to say that progress in the form of finding more positions to apply for is being made. I’m getting a better feel of what to look for, where to look and what’s available. So, while I don’t have any tangible progress, progress is being made all the same.
On a far lighter note, this weekend is Valentine’s Day weekend! As the “holiday” falls on a weekday, my boyfriend and I decided to do something for it on the weekend. It all should be quite lovely. I remember when I was growing up my mother would give my brother and I presents on Valentine’s Day. She said Valentine’s Day was for love, that she loved us more than anything and to never forget it. I always think of and remember that every year. 
